This life I've had the pleasure of living thus far has been I mean...
I'm 36 almost 37, I am Gay and I'm married not married to a Female to Male transsexual whom I had a beautiful daughter with, I live with him and his girlfriend and her Aunt in a beautiful blended family. It takes a village to raise a child, and my spouse and I realizing we were more Best Friends then lovers makes it a nice uncomplicated, loving little village. We lived through our growing pains because a house full of characters, and I do mean characters, takes a lot of getting used to. My persona alone is quite the package to get used to.
I never thought that being a parent was in the cards for me. Not only am I gay, I honestly never wanted any children. I had huge grandeur plans for myself. As we all do. I am in no way complaining, I am simply stating a fact. Now having had a daughter I wouldn't trade anything in the world for my beautiful beastie! But is that enough?
Clearly love is a given, for mostly every parent. The pressure of being responsible for the life and well being of a growing human being is possibly the scariest thing on earth. No one gets it completely right. I will admit, I was NOT ready! I''m still not ready, but I learn along the way. Life is one huge classroom, and you rarely get an A. Ill provide a brief history into me.
I grew up in a hick ass town in Michigan, raised by my Grandmother because my parents were incapable of being anything but assholes. From the age of 11-13 I was passed back and forth over 27 times from mom to dad to aunt to cousin on repeat. 13-15 I was in various Foster Homes, back to dad, he fucked up yet again, so 15-17 one more foster home. My mom finally got me after all those years at 17, and took me to Orlando Florida on a "Vacation" and ended up just leaving me there on the streets and then some.
I was a Drag Queen for over 15 years, its tapered down with age, I had three personas over the years, Ophelia B. Demented 3 years, Natasha Dior 2000-2015, and Penny Dreadful most recent but she was more of an enigma.
I attended college for over 4 years, didn't finish, but I felt I learned what I was suppose to,
Lets not forget the gargantuan amount of medications I was given from 14- 7 months ago, because I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar, Borderline Personality Disorder, Anxiety, and PTSD because of physical abuse, and that's always the answer to Drug someone up to cure their mental ailments, I gave up all pill medications given to me by the doctor and moved to a state where Marijuana is legal all round as it should be because its a natural remedy for a variety of illnesses! (See my Mary Jane Juana Blog) and its done me wonders of good.
There is a plethora of craziness in between and on top of everything stated above. Its a Lifetime movie's dream come true, with some Jerry Springer thrown in the mix.
It's been quite the journey, with a roller coaster like groove to it. Which is what I plan on revealing in this Blog. Stories picked out that need to be shared, even if its just with the computer screen. My life opinions, and revelations may not be an interesting read, You will either enjoy it, or you wont (maybe because your in it) and some of the names will be changed for their own safety and cry baby assness! Other then that I'm going to fucking write it anyhow! XOXO -M
I'm 36 almost 37, I am Gay and I'm married not married to a Female to Male transsexual whom I had a beautiful daughter with, I live with him and his girlfriend and her Aunt in a beautiful blended family. It takes a village to raise a child, and my spouse and I realizing we were more Best Friends then lovers makes it a nice uncomplicated, loving little village. We lived through our growing pains because a house full of characters, and I do mean characters, takes a lot of getting used to. My persona alone is quite the package to get used to.
I never thought that being a parent was in the cards for me. Not only am I gay, I honestly never wanted any children. I had huge grandeur plans for myself. As we all do. I am in no way complaining, I am simply stating a fact. Now having had a daughter I wouldn't trade anything in the world for my beautiful beastie! But is that enough?
Clearly love is a given, for mostly every parent. The pressure of being responsible for the life and well being of a growing human being is possibly the scariest thing on earth. No one gets it completely right. I will admit, I was NOT ready! I''m still not ready, but I learn along the way. Life is one huge classroom, and you rarely get an A. Ill provide a brief history into me.
I grew up in a hick ass town in Michigan, raised by my Grandmother because my parents were incapable of being anything but assholes. From the age of 11-13 I was passed back and forth over 27 times from mom to dad to aunt to cousin on repeat. 13-15 I was in various Foster Homes, back to dad, he fucked up yet again, so 15-17 one more foster home. My mom finally got me after all those years at 17, and took me to Orlando Florida on a "Vacation" and ended up just leaving me there on the streets and then some.
I was a Drag Queen for over 15 years, its tapered down with age, I had three personas over the years, Ophelia B. Demented 3 years, Natasha Dior 2000-2015, and Penny Dreadful most recent but she was more of an enigma.
I attended college for over 4 years, didn't finish, but I felt I learned what I was suppose to,
Lets not forget the gargantuan amount of medications I was given from 14- 7 months ago, because I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar, Borderline Personality Disorder, Anxiety, and PTSD because of physical abuse, and that's always the answer to Drug someone up to cure their mental ailments, I gave up all pill medications given to me by the doctor and moved to a state where Marijuana is legal all round as it should be because its a natural remedy for a variety of illnesses! (See my Mary Jane Juana Blog) and its done me wonders of good.
There is a plethora of craziness in between and on top of everything stated above. Its a Lifetime movie's dream come true, with some Jerry Springer thrown in the mix.
It's been quite the journey, with a roller coaster like groove to it. Which is what I plan on revealing in this Blog. Stories picked out that need to be shared, even if its just with the computer screen. My life opinions, and revelations may not be an interesting read, You will either enjoy it, or you wont (maybe because your in it) and some of the names will be changed for their own safety and cry baby assness! Other then that I'm going to fucking write it anyhow! XOXO -M
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